Merry (fucking) Christmas!

Today at work we started unpacking christmas stuff. I (used to) love christmas like every other kid, and I believe I still would - were it still a holiday celebrated once a year during a short period of time. Now it is being celebrated for a lengthy period of time, and by the time actual christmas arrives I am sick and tired of it.

We're not the first store to put the holiday spirit up for display. Others are already done with it, and we're supposed to have it all set up and finished by next friday - that's October 26th. More than 2 months to go until christmas arrives, and until then I will be forced to walk every day among the Santa Clauses, Raindeer, singing christmas trees, snowmen and various colorful christmas ornaments. Not to mention the everyday listening to the christmas carols joyfully playing to kids who just cannot keep their fingers off that singing christmas tree - or that singing "Santa on a Harley", or one of those multiple music boxes and their stupid little santas skating 'round and 'round... until I almost feel like bringing a sledgehammer to work some day and go berzerk on all those friggin' things, smashing them violently to itty bitty pieces laying scattered beautifully across the floor.

Like I said, I love christmas - but I hate the way it's been commercialized into nothing but a moneymaking business, and stretching the duration of its profit longer each and every year. So really, I don't need anyone telling me I'm desecrating christmas - that's not my job, it's the corporate fuckers who won't leave us alone about it for 2-3 months of the year (almost a quarter of a year nowadays to celebrate the holiday). While they make the big $, I am left earning my pennies while being subjected to X-Mas torture day in, day out - and once christmas finally does arrive... I don't want any part of it anymore.** How am I to feel jolly listening to "jingle bells" with my family when I've heard the stupid song umpteen times over the last couple of months.

"Could someone please turn that crap off, and play me some real music???"

Otherwise, work was ok today. Haven't slept much the last few nights on account of the depressing events with The One (as I will call her for reference in my blogging), so I was getting through the day running my mouth rabid, telling jokes that ranged from poor to exceptionally dense. We all had fun because of it, so mission accomplished anyway.

The One on the other hand was a sweetheart today, and despite recent events I want her more and more every day. Gave her a massage upon her own request, and it was probably more pleasurable for me than it was for her. Is she using me? Knowing I will do anything for her... Is she toying with my feelings?

I don't care. As long as it makes me feel good - I just don't care... But, maybe time will kill that feeling off just as those joyful christmas carols that I like so much start to wear me down after a month or so of constant listening to them.

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** I have nothing against capitalism. I'm all for it in fact. I just can't stand anything or anyone that messes with my mental well being.